I'm still here:)

Been soooo long since I have wrote.  I have been very busy with Doctors, work, doctors, and work.  Keeps me going like crazy.  Work is going well.  I have started working at the other business my boss owns.  We make fancy presentation sets for horses.  It is a lot of work but very fun:) I also went to the Scottsdale Arabian show in February to help with the booth.  Always nice to get to travel for work and even nice to a warm, sunny place in the middle of a dreary winter:) I had a great time.  The business did well and always love watching the horses show!

As for the health thing we are still doing a lot of testing.  I did have MRI of brain done and they found a lot of white spots which is bad and they think may be MS.  but my other doctor is still thinking it is Chronic Lymes as that can look identical to MS in symptoms and on the MRI.  The next step is a spinal tap to get fluid for testing.  That will be done next month.  So for now more hurry up and wait! But at least we are searching for answers.

I am now getting really excited for my trip the end of this month.  I am going with my best friend and her family on a cruise:)  We are going to visit her family in Texas for couple days before and then drive down to leave from Galveston.  I am soooooooooo way beyond excited.

So that is just a quick catch up on my life:)

Christmas in the Country Reveal

Hope everyone had a very blessed Christmas 

and a 

Happy New Year!!!

I will say this is one of the things I looked forward to the most this year!  I love doing the christmas in the country.  I love it not only for the fun gifts but because I have met some prity amazing people through this.  I love keeping up on their adventures throughout the year!  It is a great tradition!!!

I was so excited when I received my box:)  My gifts came from Jamie Rhoades over at http://unchartedrhoade.blogspot.com/.  She is the sweetest!! Not only did she send me the best gifts but she helps to organize the whole Christmas in the country exchange. That is a lot of work and I can't tell her how much I appreciate it:) 

Her gifts were perfect!!!

I am a big Coffee lover! So the coffee was perfect and I instantly fell in love with the giant coffee mug!! It is the best!!!  And who doesn't love a little chocolate to go with their coffee:)  The beef sticks were yummy, I shared those with the husband who LOVED them:)  The candle smelled AMAZING and burns so great, I might need see if I can order me another online:)  The wood cross ornament is sooooo beautiful and will hang year round!!  And the sweetest part if she remember my fur babies and sent them a special treat!  They loved them!! Thank you soooooo much Jamie for your amazing gifts and for taking the time to make this happen for all of us all over the country:)  

Thank you also to Laurie from  https://countrylinked.wordpress.com/ also for all her hard work:)  This is such an amazing blessing!!!!

I had the pleasure of sending my gift to Miss Terryn over at http://faithfamilyandbeef.com/.  This was a new blog to me and I was very excited to get to know her.  It is fun to see people from areas I have lived before:) She is from the Sandhills of Nebraska and Eric and I worked on a ranch in the sandhills a few years back:)  Love getting to see all her adventures.  I wasn't able to hand make anything this year but I found lots of fun things from around our local little town and a lot of it made by locals:) Love the new people you meet through this.  Can't wait to see what 2016 brings for everyone and for Christmas in the Country 2016:)  

Blessed- Days 3-10

It has been a rough go lately with health issues:(  I am feeling very defeated and hopeless with all that is wrong in my body.  I am in excruciating pain daily, dizzy all the time, blurry vision has become prity regular now along with my hands and arms not working very well.  The list is ridiculously long.  I try to stay positive and keep fighting but I will be honest after SOOOOO many years it is getting harder and harder to do that.  So I think it is VERY important to try and concentrate on blessings and being thankful for what I do have.

I am blessed to have an awesome husband.  A husband that loves me unconditionally even though I cost him so much!!! He works his life away, helps as much as he can at home and holds me when I am crying in so much pain.  I imagine it is sooo hard to watch someone you love suffer so much and to miss out on a lot with that person because they are so physically messed up.  but he sticks there, he tells me I am beautiful even when my body is being destroyed, and he tells me anyday no matter what with me is good.  I AM SOOOOOOOOO BLESSED BY THAT!!!  He is my angel on earth!!







Yes that is my husband getting our christmas tree way way way on a hill!!!!













I am blessed to have fur kids that cuddle with me and check on me.  That make me smile with their silliness.

Picture from Halloween;)

I am blessed to get to do what I can with family and friends like helping move the elf on the shelf;) help decorate homes, trees and do Christmas crafts with the kids when I can.

I am blessed!!!  I am blessed!!!

Blessings Day 2- your worth it

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10207971229548861&id=1541355437

This is an awesome video for everyone to see and listen to!  Love Chad Prather!  My husband tagged me in it today and left the comment your worth it to me!!! Yep the tears fell!

I have always struggled with self worth but it has gotten increasingly harder with my health getting so bad. It affects me in so many more ways than I thought possible.  Of course the physical part is hard,  but it also effects me emotionally, as I can't do as much as I need to do our want to do.  I feel like a burden,  I feel like I don't contribute enough,  and it had taken a toll on my skin,  hair,  weight and ravages my body. Causes horrible brain fog and neurological issues.   So I struggle.  But I am blessed to have a husband that loves me through it and thinks I am worth it!!! I am going to hold onto that! That is a huge blessing!

Praying for direction

We have been praying for direction in our life for sometime.  We are so very torn.  We love being close to family and friends but we also feel so out of place here.  We live outside of town and in a smaller town but it is still a lot of people compared to what we were use to in Colorado and on all the ranches.  We feel like part of us is lost and our  heart is yearning for that!  So we are trying to figure out what we should do and where we should go.  We keep praying.  Honestly if it weren't for my old retired horse we would have probably moved back to South Dakota last year.  I just don't want to move her that far again and I don't think she would do well with those harsh conditions at her ripe old age of 28.  But we both feel like being here has made us people we really don't want to be.  It is hard when your heart wants two different things.  So for now we just keep pray, pray, praying:)

We are enjoying the time we have with friends and family and I am really enjoying my job with the horses.  I feel blessed to work around horses all day and to have a boss that is so caring and understanding of my health issues.  So for now we are just going to concentrate on those things and see where the LORD leads!!

Fun little side not Duke wanted show off his new winter hat;)

Blessings

For few years I have done the daily thankfulls on Facebook and last year I started I am blessed... In December.  I thought that would be a great way to do more on my blog.  A daily I am blessed!  I want to blog more and keep in touch with fellow bloggers more.

Day 1- I am blessed by blogging!  I have met a lot of really awesome people through blogging and learned lots.  I have been inspired by people, helped me to feel not alone,  to read so many amazing things and see so many awesome photos!  Blogging has blessed me in so many more ways than I could have ever known!

Make a difference even in a small way this season!!!

http://www.crystalpeaksyouthranch.org/ranch-life/2016-cpyr-calendar-order-form/

It is time again for the yearly ordering of the Crystal Peaks youth ranch calendars. If you are not familiar with this organization you need to check out their website.  It is an amazing place that does amazing things.  They have been through so much and have helped so many.  The calendars are free, they just ask for a donation.  This is a great chance to help out an awesome place.  You can make a difference even in small ways.  Every little bit helps out!!!

To see how this place changed my life see the following post.

http://aranchlifeondreamsandprayers.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-15-shakin-faith.html