Heaven is for REAL!!!!

I just started and finished this book in one sitting yesterday!!! It is amazing and it changed a lot for me. It is about a little boy who has emergency surgery for life threatening issues and he goes to heaven during the surgery. It is an amazing story and one that will definitely change some things for you. Especially if you have ever lost a baby to miscarriage I would definitely recommend this story. It is a book I definitely recommend!!!

looking like surgery:(

So my physical therapist and the doctor talked yesterday and they are both agreeing on surgery. So I will have my pre-op appt next Thursday and then surgery on the 7th. They said this will be like starting all over again but that it will heal much faster!! SO that part is good, but I am just frustrated with it being so long:( but at least it will be healed proper. There is a lot of complication risks with this surgery but I am trusting GOD to guide the Dr. hand. So we will see how it all works out.



Thanks for every ones comments on the whole kids thing. I am still so confused. Is anyone really ever truly "ready"? Do people not really think about how they will do it? etc? I am just going to pray and if the LORD decides it is time he can make it happen:) Thanks for every ones comments.

Wanting your thoughts! Have kids? or not have kids?

Ok so we are back to this again:) When I was back home for my visit of course everyone is asking when we will have kids. And me I just don't know. Part of me wants to and part of me doesn't. It makes me feel so bad as there are others who would give anything to have kids and can't and here I sit not knowing. I also don't know with my health if I would be able to get pregnant. I am just worried maybe I am to selfish, maybe I wouldn't make a good mom, maybe I couldn't give them the life they deserve, etc. etc. etc. I know my husband would love to have kids but he doesn't pressure me. I just don't want to regret my decision either way. I just feel more pressure now as that I am getting older and also I would want my baby to grow up around those their age and everyone is pregnant now or just had babies. Seriously like 4 babies in last month and 6 pregnant now. I guess my other hindrance is that we are here all alone. I don't want my kid to be lonely. I wouldn't have people I love and trust to turn to if I needed the help as a new mother. I know these are probably things everyone worries about and I know everyone says it is different when you have your own. I know I need to trust GOD and that children are a blessing from him. But I would really love to hear from y'all on this. Kids? no kids? and just your thoughts!!!

GOD has made such stunning places!

(Hanging Lake, Glenwood Springs CO.)

Saturday I decided I wanted to get out and be brave with my arm still hurting:) I figured if I make it worse than it REALLY needs surgery for sure. So I found a picture of hanging lake online and wanted to go. It said about an hour and a half round trip and 1.2 miles. I was like no prob that would be an easy hike. Well I get there and see the sign that says "difficult" well different states have different ideas of difficult:) This state knows difficult.

This is just the first part of the trail all rock and really not much of a trail. But it was an awesome, awesome hike and I was actually prity proud of how well I did it and that I wasn't totally exhausted. And we did it in a quick time. It is 1.2 miles but goes up like 1,102 feet in that 1.2 miles. So it is a lot of switch backs. but it does follow the most beautiful dead horse creek.

Which as you can see here makes some of the most beautiful water falls all along it. I could fill this post with hundreds of pictures of this creek and different falls. It was so clean and clear and the sound was so relaxing.

This was the view from almost the top. Yes we started out below all those cliffs at the bottom where the Colorado river runs so it was a long ways up.

This is the falls that feeds hanging lake. This is called spouting rock as you can kind of see on the right fall it comes directly out of the rock cliffs.





This is hanging lake. It is so beautiful. You cannot fish or go in the water. It has special minerals and such that make it its own eco-system and it would destroy it if people were to get in it or such. It is so clear and it is full of some of the most beautiful trout. Which Handsome just thought was cruel that I would make him watch them but no fishing:)

Almost looks like some other country don't it:)



This the view from above the lake at spouting rock falls. It was just such an awesome day. It helped to remind me that there is so much out there that GOD made for me to enjoy and it wasn't even that far from us:) I want to spend more time enjoying those little moments and spending such awesome time with my husband whom I love sooooooo much!!! It is just nice to get away and enjoy the little things.

Not the best news and some possible opportunities

So many posts I need to get working on. I had my doctor appt last Thursday and it wasn't the news I had wanted to hear:( I thought things were going how they wanted. I am still in tons of pain and can't work or anything but I thought that was the process. Well then he says I will give you two more weeks and then surgery:( What where did that come from thought it was going like it should? He scheduled the surgery for the 7th so we will see on the 1st at my next doctors appt what he thinks.



With all this going on right in the middle of it my husbands work is hiring an inventory-parts person and so I applied. It would be an awesome paying job with yes BENEFITS:) Can you see the excitement on my face!!! I couldn't pass it up. But they do know that due to my injury I can't do any lifting with my left arm. I am suppose to find out this week if I get the job. I am not going to hold my breath as they had quite a few internal people apply and lots of others. So we will see what GOD does:)



I gotta get better about my post being more often. But really since we have gotten out of the ranching my life doesn't seem to have near as much excitement:) Gosh do I miss ranching with all my being.

An Awesome surprise

Well on the 10th I got an awesome surprise that I needed SOOOOOOOOOOO very much!!! I was so sad I was going to miss my cousins wedding and I was getting so very home sick(which like never happens to me) and it was making me so bummed and one of my cousins facebooked me and offered to pay my trip out. I was touched sooooooooooooo much!!! I was so excited so the next morning I booked my trip and left that day for Portland airport. My best friend and my little "niece" picked me up. It was soooooooooooo awesome to see them. I spent 7 days in Oregon with my family and friends and it was something I desperately needed. I have some very awesome, very GOD loving people back there that I can truly talk to and get that advice that you know is coming from the best place. I miss them sooooooooooooo dearly. I want to move back to Oregon soooooooooo bad in some ways but then when I am there I really don't miss being far enough away from all the petty family/friend drama. It really gave me a chance to just think and breath. It was exactly what I needed.

It was awesome to see my cousin get married, I also got to be with my best friend of 22 years for her grandmas 75th bday party. She is like a grandma to me so that was special and she was so excited that I made it. It is just nice to be there for those special things for sure. To see all the kids that grow so quickly. To just see how GOD is working in some of their lives to see such great things happening for people that have been so faithful to him. It was definitely a great trip. It really helped to adjust my attitude some. Which I DEFINITELY needed, it has really stunk.

Now I need to catch up on every ones blogs:) Miss y'all!! Arm still not healing well so off to physical therapy and then Thursday the doctor again. I really hope we can get it better. would much rather be at work:)

so it is torn:(

So I FINALLY got the results of what is wrong with my arm. The bicep muscle and tendon are partially torn:( They are hoping no surgery and that physical therapy will fix it. So no work still for at least another 3 weeks:( At least now I know but still not fun. Eric getting better and has doctor appt tomorrow, we are praying they will allow him to go back to work and that they will ok him to work with his hernia until a later date so we can do the surgery like December or something. So we will see.
Other than that just not much going on. Lots of cabin fever!!!! Even my doctor said I needed a vacation:) He said you are beyond stressed out every muscle in your body seems tense. He says he understands with all that is going on, if it were him he would run away:) I told him I would if I could:) At least for a week or so to Oregon to see my cousin get married and visit with everyone. But sadly just a dream.
Thank you to everyone who is praying, it means a lot and is much needed and appreciated. I wish I would have started blogging earlier so people could have known me before I had gotten so beaten down by all this. I try to be upbeat, positive and such but it is hard sometimes with everything all at once and for sooooooooooo long!