Blessed- Days 3-10

It has been a rough go lately with health issues:(  I am feeling very defeated and hopeless with all that is wrong in my body.  I am in excruciating pain daily, dizzy all the time, blurry vision has become prity regular now along with my hands and arms not working very well.  The list is ridiculously long.  I try to stay positive and keep fighting but I will be honest after SOOOOO many years it is getting harder and harder to do that.  So I think it is VERY important to try and concentrate on blessings and being thankful for what I do have.

I am blessed to have an awesome husband.  A husband that loves me unconditionally even though I cost him so much!!! He works his life away, helps as much as he can at home and holds me when I am crying in so much pain.  I imagine it is sooo hard to watch someone you love suffer so much and to miss out on a lot with that person because they are so physically messed up.  but he sticks there, he tells me I am beautiful even when my body is being destroyed, and he tells me anyday no matter what with me is good.  I AM SOOOOOOOOO BLESSED BY THAT!!!  He is my angel on earth!!







Yes that is my husband getting our christmas tree way way way on a hill!!!!













I am blessed to have fur kids that cuddle with me and check on me.  That make me smile with their silliness.

Picture from Halloween;)

I am blessed to get to do what I can with family and friends like helping move the elf on the shelf;) help decorate homes, trees and do Christmas crafts with the kids when I can.

I am blessed!!!  I am blessed!!!

Blessings Day 2- your worth it

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10207971229548861&id=1541355437

This is an awesome video for everyone to see and listen to!  Love Chad Prather!  My husband tagged me in it today and left the comment your worth it to me!!! Yep the tears fell!

I have always struggled with self worth but it has gotten increasingly harder with my health getting so bad. It affects me in so many more ways than I thought possible.  Of course the physical part is hard,  but it also effects me emotionally, as I can't do as much as I need to do our want to do.  I feel like a burden,  I feel like I don't contribute enough,  and it had taken a toll on my skin,  hair,  weight and ravages my body. Causes horrible brain fog and neurological issues.   So I struggle.  But I am blessed to have a husband that loves me through it and thinks I am worth it!!! I am going to hold onto that! That is a huge blessing!

Praying for direction

We have been praying for direction in our life for sometime.  We are so very torn.  We love being close to family and friends but we also feel so out of place here.  We live outside of town and in a smaller town but it is still a lot of people compared to what we were use to in Colorado and on all the ranches.  We feel like part of us is lost and our  heart is yearning for that!  So we are trying to figure out what we should do and where we should go.  We keep praying.  Honestly if it weren't for my old retired horse we would have probably moved back to South Dakota last year.  I just don't want to move her that far again and I don't think she would do well with those harsh conditions at her ripe old age of 28.  But we both feel like being here has made us people we really don't want to be.  It is hard when your heart wants two different things.  So for now we just keep pray, pray, praying:)

We are enjoying the time we have with friends and family and I am really enjoying my job with the horses.  I feel blessed to work around horses all day and to have a boss that is so caring and understanding of my health issues.  So for now we are just going to concentrate on those things and see where the LORD leads!!

Fun little side not Duke wanted show off his new winter hat;)

Blessings

For few years I have done the daily thankfulls on Facebook and last year I started I am blessed... In December.  I thought that would be a great way to do more on my blog.  A daily I am blessed!  I want to blog more and keep in touch with fellow bloggers more.

Day 1- I am blessed by blogging!  I have met a lot of really awesome people through blogging and learned lots.  I have been inspired by people, helped me to feel not alone,  to read so many amazing things and see so many awesome photos!  Blogging has blessed me in so many more ways than I could have ever known!

Make a difference even in a small way this season!!!

http://www.crystalpeaksyouthranch.org/ranch-life/2016-cpyr-calendar-order-form/

It is time again for the yearly ordering of the Crystal Peaks youth ranch calendars. If you are not familiar with this organization you need to check out their website.  It is an amazing place that does amazing things.  They have been through so much and have helped so many.  The calendars are free, they just ask for a donation.  This is a great chance to help out an awesome place.  You can make a difference even in small ways.  Every little bit helps out!!!

To see how this place changed my life see the following post.

http://aranchlifeondreamsandprayers.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-15-shakin-faith.html