Something close to my heart....anyone can help!!!

It is time again this year for crystal peaks to sell there 2011 calendars. Actually they are free but would encourage donations. I would highly recommend these as they have great picture from the ranch with scriptures that fit. It is a great way for the ranch to share what they do through the year and to make some money for the ranch. This is an awesome, awesome organization and they do amazing things for the LORD, kids and horses. Not to menchin anyone who has visited the ranch. I know it changed my life and brought me hope when I needed it!!!! They are amazing and there website is great. If you have not read Kim's books you need to they are awesome!!!!!! I can't say enough about this place and how they truly are there to serve not to get rich or feel good about themselves. This place is all about GOD's work and what he has for everyone there!!!

Here is the link to there site: http://www.crystalpeaksyouthranch.org/

Here is the link for ordering the 2011 calendar: www.crystalpeaksyouthranch.org/merchandise/2011-calendar/default.aspx



So if anyone would like to take the time and donate for a really neat calendar and help a lot of people with such a small gesture this is a great place to do that. Thanks:)

A great thanksgiving and busy, busy, busy!!!!

Well I had a great thanksgiving spending it with my grandparents. It was sooooooo nice to get to spend it with family and with two people who have always loved me and supported me through a lot of very rough times. So it was nice to be thankful for them and with them this year. We got some more done around the house as my back is still messed up so they helped a lot and then we spent time playing games of course:) Poor Eric had to work all but thanksgiving afternoon so he was sad to not see much of them but grateful they were here:)

The job has been frustrating but we are just happy to have one and a place to live. But our first paycheck was 6 days late and after moving that isn't a good thing. On top of that all the checks bounced they wrote and that wasn't the first time we have heard so that concerns us a lot. Why can't people just be up front and honest in interviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not like we had much of a choice with needing to be out of our old place. But we will work hard and keep looking around also.

We love the ranch life but it is hard to find good, responsible people to work with. It seems like in the ranch world it is either the ranch owners are great or not. And if they are great they keep their help and treat them well. That is what we REALLY want to find:) We were hoping this is was the place but as of right now don't think so. But we will keep good attitudes and give it a good try.

Well hope everyone had a great and blessed thanksgiving!!!!!!!!!

A few snapshots from our new place

Here are just a couple of quick pics I took since we have been here. This ranch is not big and open like all our other ranches. It is A LOT smaller and sits between two towns so it is weird being back in civilization:)

Our little house during one of the first snows

Here is Kohanna enjoying his favorite cold weather and snow.

Then there is Bear in one of his many "action" shots:)

The view off my front porch of the Rockies. BEAUTIFUL this picture does not do it justice. I sooooooooo need to get a better camera.

Here are my other two babies that I finally got to bring home:) I am just so thankful for the browneyedangels that took such good care of them but so happy to have them with me close by:)

SOOOO much to get done!!!

I will get pictures up soon of our new place. There is still so much to get done. My back being hurt really has screwed things up. I usually take care of everything once we pull in the driveway. Now I can't lift much or anything so that is very frustrating for me. We need to get our horse fence up but I can't pound the posts so I am trying to get the boys to step it up and get that done so I can bring my babies home:) Thank gosh for browneyed angels that have been taking such good care of them. I just can't wait to look out the window and see them again:)

My grandparents are going to drive up from Arizona and see us for thanksgiving. They will be here on Monday so I am very excited for that:) It will be soooooo awesome to spend a holiday with them, I haven't spent a holiday with them since I was very very young. The only thing is that means I got a lot of cleaning and unpacking to do before then and also got to find some very very cheap used furniture:) We didn't bring our furniture with us since it wouldn't fit in the trailer plus it was freebies from craigslist so we were hoping to maybe find something a little more comfortable and nice here so we don't have to use up space in the next trailer load we still have to go get from South Dakota.

I can't believe it is officially "the holidays" now. I love the holidays and am already listening to Christmas music:) Well better get back to some boxes:)

I never use to be this weak!!!!!

I have to say that I was never a weak, negative, sad, unhappy person. I was one of those people you just wanted to punch in the face because no matter what was thrown at me I could just shrug it off or roll with the punches. REALLY WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT GIRL!!!!

I have to say I worry alllllll the stinkin time anymore and I am really frustrated and down a lot. I do not want to be that person and I really really do try and fight that. I can pinpoint when that all changed. I really believe it was in 2005 when I got the tularemia. Before that I could do anything physically and I was prity thin and happy with my body for the most part(as happy as most women can be:)) I really felt good about myself and who I was at that time. There were parts of my life that weren't so great(like being married to not the best man in the world) But as far as me I was happy. Then that disease hit and it wrecked me. I cannot even begin to tell you the toll it took on me mentally and physically. I should be dead. I am not saying that to be dramatic either I am being honest it wrecked every part of my body and took all my muscle, strength and everything I had. If it weren't for my dear friend Brenda I would have been dead. It was also then that it was one of those times "you find out who your friends are" and really I was shocked to see not many.:( It hurt me and it really really made me sad and to be honest I don't think I have ever recovered from that. I am a people pleaser and I can't stand it if people don't like me or say bad things about me, it hurts me to the core. So that was a very rough time. But since that disease my body has just seemed to wreak havoc with itself and I have never regained the strength and determination I had before. I want it back. oh and believe me I have tried to "PUT ON MY BIG GIRL PANTIES AND GET OVER IT!!!!!" But honestly I don't know how. And I hate the expression but that is for another rant sometime:)

I just don't want to be one of those negative, unhappy, weak people but how do I get out!!! I want to be healthy, happy and full of life. But I really don't know how people do that daily that feel like I do daily physically. I need to spend more time praying and more time being thankful for what I do have that is what I need to do. There is a lot of people out there worse of than me and in more pain than I and I should be thankful that isn't me and praying for them.

I just want to be that healthy, vibrant, bubbly person I was. The one who could look at the bright side of everything. I really just hope my job syndrome is over soon I don't want anymore!! Thank y'all for the prayers and support it REALLY REALLY does make a difference.

In colorado and thank GOD for browneyed angels:)

Well we are here and I finally have Internet to catch up on all your lives:) We left our place at like 6am Wednesday morning last week and got to grand junction area at 11pm that night. That is a VERY VERY long and very stressful trip with my old mare. She did way better than I thought but we had to stop quite a few times and let her out. I have been soooooooooooo beyond stressed out about moving them and finding a good place as the place Eric will be working doesn't have good facilities for an older horse. SOOOO THANK GOD FOR BROWNEYED ANGELS:) They are staying with one right now. I am looking like mad for a different place for them. I will have to get them here in a couple of days but if it weren't for her I would be beyond a nervous wreck it made all the difference in the world to have someone I could trust watch them while we get settled and a place for them. Also I hurt my back the day we pulled in here at the house and ended up in the hospital for a couple of days so thank gosh someone was there for them. I could never say how thankful I am!!!! Now I am looking like mad for a place for my babies that will be good for them. So please everyone pray for that for us I know it helps immensely:)

Well got to go rest my back now and stare at all the stuff I can't do. But it will get done eventually:) I will post pics when I can!!

On the move starting tomorrow!!!

So GOD willing we will be leaving tomorrow bright and early. I am not sure how as I am looking at about another day or two worth of work and it is 11pm. But hopefully it will get done quickly. Then we will be on our way to our new home in Colorado.

I have been sooooooooooo beyond stressed about this move. But thanks to a real true angel who has offered a safe place for my mare for a little while till I find her a good place near me I have been able to not be sooooo stressed. I can't believe that a person I have never met can be so kind. I can't even begin to say how grateful and blown away I am. I thank GOD for angels like her:) The LORD answers prayers and in such awesome ways:)

Well we won't have Internet till probably Friday or so. I will update everyone then:) Thanks for all the prayers and kindness I can never tell y'all how much it means!!!!!! It REALLY REALLY does help!!!