It has been so long since I have been on our wrote a blog. I had taken a break and then so much in life happened!! I loved blogging on one hand and I loved the people I met and talked with through blogging but then on the other hand I have a hard time when people aren't exactly nice. Or when they misunderstand me. I felt like I needed to take a break but then life happened as it always does and I found myself coming here to write and then being afraid to be judged. I realize when you put things out there and especially to strangers you are opening yourself up for that. I need to work on how that affects me and then I had to remind myself of the good it brought to me also. Also it is a great way to look back and see where I have been and how far I have come.
I know I have SOOOOO MUCH to work on and I am trying. I'm not perfect, won't pretend to be and will continue to try and be better. But I know I am a good person, I want what is best for others, would not purposely hurt anyone and try to live my life the most authentic and best that I can!
I will try and do some catching up in the weeks to come but in the gist of it all there has been SOOO many huge, life altering things to happen. I'm still battling my chronic illness, I am still working on the same arabian farm(which I love), Eric and I are not together anymore( A heartbreak deeper than I can even put into words yet), I lost my longest companion(my 29 year old horse shar), my boys(by boys I mean dogs) live with their dad and new wife(yes he is already remarried:( ) I live on the farm I work on which I love, I am back in the dating world(that is a whole crazy thing in itself). So as you can see a lot has changed in almost two years!!!
