I was really peeved off by this

I don't normally get to worked up by things but lately I am sooooo tired of rude people. We have still been on the look out for work and I happened upon this ad. I was really ticked when I read it for many reasons. Here is the ad.

Live in horse farm/small business secretary and factotum
Job Type: Full-time Location: Brunswick Cty. Date Posted: Oct-10-2010 01:13 AM


I can offer a very good living arrangement on a horse farm for the right person. you must be honest and trustworthy, a faithful Christian, slender and energetic enough to go horseback riding regularly year round, educated and smart enough to enjoy intelligent conversation. You must posess office working skills and be willing to help out in general with my small business. the free living arrangement includes $300 monthly stipend. There is also the possability for greater compensation by further developing the business and/or if you have the skill needed to give beginners riding lessons and trail boss trail riding customers. For the live in situation Please only apply if you are single and totally unattached.

The words in red made me hot! I mean to assume that you are only fit and able to ride regularly if you are slender is BS. I know I am overweight and I know that I am working on it but that is just plain rude and then to say faithful christian. As a christian I just don't think it is right for me to judge someone on there looks, or weight. I mean yes we all do it in some way but really to write that in an ad for employment come on!!!! Sorry there is my vent for today!!

The perfect song came on yesterday

I was driving home and praying as always that the LORD would show me where he wants me and such. Then this song came on. It still didn't answer any of those questions but it did answer how I should deal with it and my attitude. You may not like this singer but if you listen to the words it is amazing!!!! It is the climb by Miley Cyrus. I will post the video and the words.




The Climb lyrics
Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

LORD I am ready for you to show me where I belong

I know we don't truly "belong" in this world but we are here and I really want to know where I belong here. I just feel like I am wasting precious time doing nothing. I feel like there is a bigger purpose for me. With that said I have NO IDEA WHAT IT IS!!! I could come up with a million things I am sure but that wouldn't be my true purpose. I really just have no idea where I am suppose to go or what I am suppose to do! I see everyone around me doing things(having kids, amazing careers, etc.) and me not a thing. I don't want to live like this anymore. I don't want to be broke, sad, stagnate. I want to be doing something with our life. But really truly deep down I have no idea how to get out of the predicament we are in and really where to go so we aren't in anymore predicaments. I just really really don't know what the LORD has planned for my life. I know we aren't suppose to know it all but it would be nice to feel as though I am doing something. So please LORD help me to see what you want me to do.

Really bad judge of characters I guess!!!

So we have both decided we are to trusting and bad judge of characters when it comes to these jobs. This time it wasn't like we had much of a choice on the job that we took since we had to be out of our other place. I know everyone is probably tired of hearing about our job drama and the complaining and I am sorry but this blog was to get out what was going on in my life and this is what is going on in our life. It is soooooooooooo hard to find a good ranch it seems. We really thought these people were going to be the ones but we are finding out daily the nightmare we took on. For one we haven't gotten either of our paychecks on time and have had to call and call to get them and when you live paycheck to paycheck you can't have that. Then the first paychecks bounced and we were told from the other employees that wasn't the first time and that they are always late. Then they decided they don't want to take taxes out on us so we have to pay more and such. Not to menchin it is soooooooooooo unorganized and a huge disgusting mess around here. We have at least a dozen cows out everyday and night and we live next to the road and railroad tracks so that is never fun. But no one else lives on the property so it is us out there getting them but they don't want to spend the money to put up a hot wire to prevent it. Then Eric asks the owner for something and the manager came unglued and was mad at him for asking him and not himself. We were told at the interview we could go to either of them. It doesn't help that the manager really doesn't know much and spends more of the day on his phone or talking and not working and then wonders why nothing gets done. Sorry for the vent. We have been here 5 weeks and Eric has had a total of two half day offs. Well really not even that. He goes to work 5-5:30 and usually isn't off till 7. I know ranch life is hard and lots of work and we aren't afraid of the work but when you still haven't even gotten unpacked because you haven't had time that isn't good. And then the pay does not make up for it. Plus having to pay the utilities, water, etc makes a big difference.

We are still looking and looking at other options. We love the ranch life but if we can't find an organized, normal person to work for it won't work out and we can't keep moving around. We have thought about getting out of it altogether but we can't afford to get our own place. With our bad credit from all the medical and loosing the house during all that and then the first, last and deposits we just can't do it. We have had a lot of rude comments and mean things said to us and yes on the outside it may look easy to do things but if you walk in someone Else's shoes you will see the difficulties. I have really learned that through everything the last few years, not to judge and to look at it from a different perspective.

So please continued prayers would be awesome. I start my little part time job today and then I will ad another part time job soon also so please pray my body gets better. My back has been really bad and I am feeling prity tired and sick lately so It hasn't been the best of times. Thank you for all your support and prayers you have NO idea how much they mean!!!!

Got my christmas tree up and decorated:)

So of course with the move and everything we didn't bring our Christmas stuff in the first load it is all still in South Dakota in storage. We thought we would make it back soon, but that was a big yeah right!!! So all we are going to do this year is lights on the house and a tree. Eric hasn't had a day off since we got here so we were so excited when he got a half day off last Sunday. I had looked online and found a really cool u-cut place. So we headed off that way. It was the most beautiful tree farm and so full of Christmas spirit with hay rides, cider, and such. But when we went to get the tree the prices were stinkin outrageous. Ugly, and I mean ugly trees started at $60 and any we like or our size were $110-$135. We said no way!!! so we just enjoyed seeing the horses and such and then headed back to town to try and find a tree. We went to walmart and no way they were all literally brown and half dead. The guy said he could do half price. I said I don't want to pay half price to burn down my house thanks. So I was bummed knowing we wouldn't get another chance anytime soon and we wouldn't have enough time to find our way to the forest to cut our own so as a last resort we tried home depot of all places and behold and affordable, beautiful prity fresh tree:) I am still praying for a new camera. A nice one that will take amazing pictures:) Sorry these aren't the best and it definitely does not do the tree justice but it is a cute tree. My handsome picked the tree out and I made most of the decorations and such. It was fun to do together:) Hope everyone is having a very blessed Christmas season!!!

Well I got my part time, part time job at the barn:)

So I got the job at the horse barn. It is only 4-5 days a week for a couple hours but hey it is a start:) I will get to be around lots of horses and horse people:) It is a boarding facility but they also have a trainer that works there that is from New Zealand and she does hunter jumper and then they do dressage. I am prity excited about that. I so love so many riding disciplines so this will be great. I will get to watch them work while I work:) I will have to get pictures someday and post of the place. Simple but nice is a great description:) Just sooooooooooo excited!!!!

A job interview tomorrow..and it is at a barn:)

So I have a job interview tomorrow at a barn south of here. It is only part time but hey it is money and it will get me working around horses again which I miss soooooooooo very much. I am just going to be feeding, mucking, etc. But who knows it may open other doors also. You never know. That is what happened last time....went from stall cleaner to full barn manager. So please say a prayer for me that this would workout great for me. And part time right now would probably be great with my back and such hopefully this work will help strengthen it back up again:) I am just so very, very excited:) Can't wait!!!!

I gotta get going I need to get my Christmas lights up today and then get our tree sometime this weekend. It is going to be a cowboy tree complete with a cowboy hat topper:) I will post pics when we get it done:)