I have been fighting depression and negativity for quite sometime now. I know it will continue to be a struggle but I want to try better to fight it and not let it win. I want to be that strong, courageous, outgoing, bubbly, fun loving, adventurous, strong in faith woman I use to be. I want that back!!!
It has been hard for me being alone so much and for being injured an not being able to do anything "useful". I want to have my life back. I know all to well that life is to short and I am lucky to be here today and I don't want to waste the second chances GOD has given me. I have let myself and others beat me down for to long.
I am lost though. I don't know what to do. I know I want to do things differently. I just don't know how! I am not good at anything and not talented. Now I am not trying to be whinny or self deprecating. It is true. I really don't have anything that I am good at or talented in. I have things I love and am passionate about but I just don't know what to do with that. I don't want to be poor all my life, I don't want to be unhealthy all my life, I don't want to be lonely all my life. So now I pray and pray and pray that GOD will show me what he has for my life:)
I am going to work better at fighting off the sadness and feeling of being worthless! I thought I should think of the things that make me smile!!
1.My husband that loves me even when I am FAR from perfect
2. My pets that make me laugh, smile, and keep me company:)
3. My true friends-the ones that know me and love me anyway:)
4. That I am here. I shouldn't be alive today and I am so there is a reason:)
5. Books-They give me time to just relax and daydream for a while
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