Trying to stay positive with all going on!

So I learned long ago not to say whats going to happen next. Even though I don't say it guess what......the crap just keeps happening. I try to stay positive and look at the good things I have but it is so hard sometimes. It is just hard to try so hard and to have Eric work so hard to get NOWHERE. Yes the job is nice for pay but with the cost of living here and trying to get things caught up that need it like car repairs, doctors, etc that doesn't leave anything for back bills or the unexpected things that come up. Don't think I don't know everyone struggles with this cause I know they do. I just wish one thing could work out well and just give us a chance to get caught up and then work on getting some savings. With that rental house not working out and this one is a mess with where the horses are(poor Eric has already fallen twice now trying to feed when it was rainy) we are REALLY trying to find a different rental soon but not a lot available now and then yesterday the car decided it wants to die:( One of the lifters is going bad so now we have to scramble to find another cheap car. Just a lot going on and when I don't feel well and arms are hurting makes my patience thin to say the least. I have never been so impatient as in this last year but I think the years and years of pain and sickness on top of life is finally just got me down:( I keep praying and trying really hard to kick my attitude but I just don't know what to do anymore. Just keep going and doing what we can and hope it doesn't end in an even bigger disaster! I know GOD is control and I know I will look back one day and see the reason for all this but it is just hard now. I know there is a lot worse and I thank GOD everyday for the good I do have so that is what I will continue to do. I usually write the downer stuff in my other blog but thought I would share my thoughts with my blogger friends:)

kitty gone wild and grandma gets staples

So here is what happened with my Grammy while she was here. I had gone in and cleaned the Kitty's litter box, fed them and such and petted them. I opened their windows a crack and left. About 5 min or so later I went to go outside to start the car since we were leaving for my physical therapy and hit Tonka on my way out with the door and he took off around the house. "what the, why are you out?" go around and see he had pulled the window open further and then pushed the corner of the screen out. He was all scared and puffing and that is not like him. SOOOO Stupid me I reached down to grab him and put him away as I have done a few times before and he went psycho kitty on my rear. He jumped on my other arm and scratched the heck out of me:( He has never done anything like that so my grandma comes out to see why I had hollered I told her he scratched me and he did....blood was dripping everywhere. Well we live way to close to the road so I ran in to get the kennel and my grandma was still outside. As I come out the door I see her by the fence hollering and she said he got me to. I look up and she has blood running down her forehead, way more than what a kitty could have done. So she runs in and washes her head really quickly while I get Tonka in the kennel and put him in his room where 5 minutes later of course he is fine. We think he might have gotten chased by one of the Ferrel cats that hangs around since he was SO SCARED! So I go inside to check on grandma and she says look and as I look I see a couple little scratches and then a cut about 3 1/2 inches long and really deep all laid open. I ask her what happened and she said she picked him up and you know cats he climbed right up her. I said he couldn't have cut you like that so we get her ready to go to ER and I go outside to investigate and realize when she bent down to get him off her head she hit the barbed wire fence and that is what sliced her. So a trip to the ER some nice Dr's, a tetanus shot, and 7 staples in her head and we were back home. Never did hurt much she said just started to itch as it healed. What a crazy weird thing to have happen. My kitty tried to apologize in kitty purrs and grandma forgave him but we know just to get the kennel if he is scared. Lessons you learn the hard way. I have known that with cats but no matter if he was scared he has never done that before so it better not happen again or he will be claw less!

Not moving yet:(

Well we aren't going to move yet:( The house we were sooooooooooo in love with won't workout. they didn't want horses on the property. Wish they just would have said that upfront but oh well. We were possibly going to board the horses but why have em if I can't even see them and then it would have cost us more than we are paying now and we want to get cheaper not more. We need to be able to do better not worse so we decided to just keep looking and see what we can find. Just REALLY would like to find it before winter! But we will see.

Other than that nothing to exciting. Just getting excited for Halloween. I love Halloween and I love to dress up! I am going as a buccaneer this year and Eric a rouge pirate:) I am not sure where we are going yet but we will find somewhere fun I am sure. Just fun to get out and be something you aren't for a day:)

Crazy around here lately!!

So it has been crazy past two weeks. My grandma came in on the 8th and left the 17th with Staples in her head(that will be a post all its own soon) and then we have been trying to find a different rental before winter. This place is alright but the only way down to the horses to feed, ect is down a hill that gets very slippery when wet or snowy and I fell countless times last year being careful and can't afford to have that happen this year with my arms:( We have looked at so many but over the past two weeks we have really been trying to get one. It was AWESOME and perfect it was just a couple acres with a really nice house and like 3 miles or so from Eric's work. But then finally yesterday we got the call that said they were not allowing horses as when they subdivided the 80 acres or whatever into 4 parcels they agreed not to allow livestock of any kind. REALLY!?!?!? so I am beyond bummed. But my husband still wants to rent the house and board the horses which I am REALLY not keen on. I would rather just find a different place all together. But we will see what happens. So it has just been looking places, physical therapy and waiting.

Its SNOWING on October 6th WTF?!?!?!

So yes it is October 6th and it is snowing here. It isn't sticking right here but just about 1500 feet above us is. It is beautiful and I love the snow but it is so hard on the animals especially the horses to go back and forth from warm to cold, etc. Next week will be upper 60's and 70's but 30's at night. Pringle coliced this spring and since he wasn't impacted or anything my guess was just the crazy weather changes so now it makes me nervous. So I am watching them carefully!!! Its gonna change whether we are ready or not:)

Missing riding sooooooooo much!! Feeling a tug!

I have really missed riding A LOT!!! I of course haven't been able to do anything with my horse other than look at her and give her treats and a few pets since I have been injured but it has been longer than that since I have really ridden her. She is older and has some soundness issues that I really don't feel comfortable putting my fat self on her for long. I need to get a vet out and have her looked over and see what they think but really she is only going to be an easy rider if that. I miss REALLY riding! I use to ride all the time. That was my thing to keep my peace:) I loved showing and barrel racing and all that fun stuff. I am feeling a Tug to want to get back into it. A huge part of me just feels dead. But right now we just can't do it. So I guess it is just more incentive to take care of my arms so they heal properly and to really be disciplined in spending and such to try to set it up so we can get a couple of good, broke, ready to enjoy horses and be able to give them everything they need. I would love more than anything to do a drill team for rodeos or even the simplest to carry the flag at the opening of the rodeo, that is a huge dream for me:) I know so silly but I LOVE IT!!! I also would love to ride in parades and such again. So for now dream, dream, dream:)

YAY its October:)

I love, love, love October!!! I love the warm days and cool mornings and nights. I love the color of all the leaves and brush and such changing. I love HALLOWEEN!!! Yes Halloween in is my favorite holiday. I love to dress up and be something I am not for a day:) This year we are going to be pirates! I had to pick something "manly" husband said so he was good with the pirates:) Plus my favorite anything is Pumpkin-pumpkin ice cream, pumpkin muffins, pumpkin coffee, etc so it is a good month:)