My poor baby not doing very well:(

So my old dog Kohanna.  He turned 12 on saturday.  I have had him since he was 5 weeks old.  He is the coolest dog.  He is sweet, funny, mouthy and a model baby:)  But this last year been prity rough to him.  He got Giardia last year this time and then January he was diagnosed with Heartworm:(  and he also has low thyroid.  But really even through it all he been a trooper and prity spirited.   But his low thryoid has caused a problem where the flap that closes off when they eat or drink to keep stuff from getting into their lungs doesn't work right and sometimes it sticks and that means he can't breathe:(  He has done fine just maybe a little coughing some but Saturday it didn't open back up.  He was panicked and falling all over and then fell unconscious while I was trying to help him.  I ran and got a plastic spoon and gently pushed down in his throat and got it opened back up thank the LORD and he came around.  But he just not himself.  And he keeps having small episodes with the breathing.  So now comes the hard decision:(  I just don't want that to happen and again and not be able to get his throat back open. He deserves a better end than that:(  So praying and spending as much time as I can with my baby!!!

picture of the day-Needed craft

I was going crazy with my earrings all tangled and not fitting in my jewlery box so I borrowed and idea from my friend Sarah from Between the fence posts. It works great and is cute to:)

Doctor update

So since the nerve block relieved some of the issues for a couple days they want to try it again at least once and maybe twice to see if it will last longer.  Then if that doesn't work we will have to see a neurologist.  But at least it finally gave us an answer on the issue. It is the cysts on my spinal cord causing the issue.  Good to find out why but bad that it involves my spinal cord:(  So I have my next injection on the 30th and then we will go from there.
  As far as the spots seen on my ribs and kidney we are working on trying to get on the US high risk plan so that I can get the CT scans done to see what it is.  With my history of cancer they are really worried about it and want it done asap.  So we working at it!  That cancer haunts you everyday for the rest of your life:(  It is something that you always wonder when or if it will come back.  I know you can't let it run your life, but you can't ignore it either.  So hopefully soon we can get the CT scans done.

picture of the day-Rifle Airshow 2012

The airshow they put on here at the airport is really awesome and free!!  They had some really good acts this year but we had a bad storm kick up all the sudden and caused a ruckus so they cancelled the evening and night show:(  But they will do it again tomorrow as long as the weather holds up!  I am not tired, very painful and the sun beat me up prity good.  But it was good to get out:)

Denver broncos caravan was there and this is their mascot Miles in the plane!

This team was amazing!!!

The B-17 is awesome.  Wish I was rich enough to take a ride in it.  Rides are$425-$625 for 20 min. YIKES!!! But if I was rich it would sooooooooo worth it:)

Picture of the day- Mountains by us

picture of the day-Be Strong and Courageous

This is big to me!!! This is my biggest struggle right now.  I have always been tough and strong but these past few years life has really brought me to my knees and changed me:(  It has changed me in a way I don't like.  I am a wimp, my faith is wavering, I fell abandoned, Unloved, and I am falling short all the time.  I don't like that.  But I think GOD is breaking me for a reason and man is he breaking me.  My spirit, my body, my emotions, etc are broken beyond what I can even describe.  The sadness and despair is sooooooooooo deep.  I hate it!! I fight it, I pray and yet no hope no relief.  GOD has a plan and I just need to trust that!!! 

I thought I would share a few pictures below of when I did feel Strong and Courageous!!

 

Working elk at the Elk Ranch.  I always felt strong, capable, needed, appreciated.  

Living in the Yurt- I felt strong, capable, adventurous!

showing- I felt accomplished, talented, physically fit

Working on Ranches-Tough, Brave, Accomplished, Physically fit, capable!

Living in the Tipi-Brave, smart, adventurous, capable, healthy!!!

 

picture of the day- Evening sunset