Motivational Monday-Jeremiah 29:11

This is a scripture I have placed everywhere around my home. It brings comfort and peace.  It is always good to look to the LORD and his word in this life.  It is what I try to live by.  I do fall short for sure but I try.

Working on my blog style

I have a hard time coming up with things sometimes as I get  busy as everyone else and sometimes I don't have pictures that would make the post better so I have been trying to come up with a way to keep more in touch with my blog and post more often so I thought I would try some of the day of the week blogs.  I am not stylish so what I wore wed would NOT be pretty:)  I am going to pick some days and make them a regular thing.
 So my first day will be Motivational monday.  What better way to start a week than being motivated.  I will use things from my life, others lives, the internet, etc.  Hope you will enjoy this:)

Doing more with this blog

I have said it before and I need to really make more of an effort to keep this blog up.  I love looking back and remembering all we have been through.  I have slacked and also been a little intimidated to write somethings.  I am who I am and that is all I will ever be.  So I want to make sure I spend more time updating and sharing:)  I love blogging and am so grateful for the friends I have made here.  I learn so much from reading about others and what they are going through.  I love the people that are real and share the good, the bad and the ugly.  The ones that stand up for what they believe in no matter what others say.  That takes guts and I appreciate that.  So I will try and remember that when I hesitate to share things.  Thank you to everyone who reads my blog and comments.  It is nice to have others share their opinion and experiences:)

My heart is in south dakota

My heart never left south dakota when we left.  I truly feel like that is where home is.  But seeing all the pictures and reading all the articles my heart is with everyone there.  I can't even put into words the sadness I have for all that are going through that.  It will affect people in SOOOO many ways.  I have checked in with all of our friends in the area and some did alright and there were a few that just started to cry and all they could say was they are gone in reference to the cattle.  So as we go about our days please lift these people and their livestock up in prayer as this is going to change peoples lives forever!!!

October already!!

Man every years seems to go faster.  This has been a crazy one for sure.  October is my favorite month and Halloween is my favorite holiday.  To top it off it is my husbands birth month so it is all around a good month:)  Not to mention hunting season:)  We have been busy with getting ready and now hunting, working, and keeping up with family and friends.
   My body on the other hand is not keeping up and trying to kick my butt.  But I have found a group on facebook for hashi's sufferers and am learning SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much.  There is so much to auto immune disorders that I did not know and that I am appalled and irritated that doctors don't know or emphasize.  I am having to make huge changes in my life diet wise, medication wise, etc.  This disease can lead to very bad things such as diabetes, heart disease, ms, and many many other issues.  There is no cure and it is something I will battle for the rest of my life but all this knowledge will help me make it at least better.  Now we are working on trying to get insurance so I can get in for check ups and have some help in all the tests I need.  We have found spots on my kidneys, ribs and now enlargement in my throat so we are trying to find affordable insurance so we can get the MRI and CAT scans done to make sure the cancer is not back and has not spread.  It is scary to say the least. So we will see what happens.  I keep praying for the best and a long happy life with my husband.
   I am ready for the cool weather but not the record amounts of rain:( ICK!!!  I Hope we got a lot of it out of the way for the winter then:)  But it is Oregon so I am sure it will give us plenty of rain the next 9 months:)
 

4 years and forever to go:)

Can't believe it has already been 4 years.  Seems like yesterday.  We have been through so much in those 4 years and the 3 years before our wedding.  But we have come out stronger and more in love!!!  I am blessed to have the most amazing husband that loves me for me and unconditionally.  That is so very rare to find anymore so I count my blessing daily.  I thank the LORD for sending me my prince charming.

   Thank you Handsome for the most amazing life and I look forward to seeing where our adventures take us.  You are my world and I couldn't imagine it without you.  Love you forever and ever and ever after that!!!

Summer of reflection and learning

I know I have disappeared but it has been as I am sure for everyone a very crazy busy summer!! We have gone on a few trips and I have spent time with friends and family.  I have had a rough summer with problems from my hashimotos disease and my arms so I am trying to learn to balance it all.  So it has been a growing summer also. But it has been a summer of deep reflection also.  Being here in Oregon has changed a lot for me and helped me to work through somethings.  Not fix things but work through them.  I think the hardest thing in life is to realize not all things can or will be fixed but it is coming to peace with them not being or being able to.  That is so hard for me.  I don't like to give up on people and I don't like people to think bad of me.  It has been a huge burden in my life and something I know I will continue to struggle with.  I have learned this summer a lot about letting people go that don't deserve to be in my life, I have learned a little more that I can't help what others think(that one still deeply hurts),  I have learned that life isn't going to ever be how you think it should be(I mean I knew that but I need to be ok with that).  I have learned that trying to be everything everyone else thinks or wants will never work for anyone and that it is ok not to be.  I don't want to be a cold, uncaring, hard person but I also don't want to be door mat and sad all the time.  It is learning that balance.
  It has been hard for me being back in Oregon not only with a lot of rain most of the year but with family and friends. I don't like drama, gossip and backstabbing and unfortunately my family and some friend circles are full of it.  I don't want to be that or like that. I knew that before coming here but you always hope it would be different and you are always sad when you miss out on things but in the end I think it was healthier and better when I just visited.  But I will say I wouldn't trade this time as I think growing up we get ideas in our head from the view we seen and talking with family more deeply this year has help me to see where I was wrong in things I thought and that my family had WAY more problems than I ever knew.  It is sad to find a lot of these things out, but it also released me in a way of thinking I didn't measure up or that I needed to impress them.  I always wanted that loving, supportive, kind, family but in reality that is not my family.  They are hurt, sad, bitter, resentful and that hurts.  I will continue to pray and I will change what I can in how I am but in the end we can't change others.  Just sad to see it:(
   I have also very much realized I don't fit in and this is not the life style.  I don't like busy, busy, rush, rush, traffic, lines, etc.  I like a slower paced life with kind people around.  We are both praying on what we should do next so we shall see what the next adventure brings:)  But for now I am just trying to learn and grow.