Things that make me uncomfortable- May challenge day 3

Oh this list could be long.  Hey thats it maybe just a list:)

*being overweight

*shopping- I know most woman love it but being overweight really makes it uncomfortable for me.  I won't even go into most stores because I know things won't fit and I always feel like people will look at me and think is she kidding nothing will fit.

*going into a new place where I don't know anyone

*going into a place that I feel like I am not dressed properly

*going to something or somewhere that I don't know what to expect

*asking people for help

*confrontation of course-most of us are that way

*accepting help-always makes me feel bad and then worried it will be used against me later

*strangers being to close to me-those people in the grocery store especially that stand an inch from you in line

I know I am uncomfortable a lot!!!  

Blog everyday in may challenge

I found this challenge on a fellow blogger calamity lace's page.  She got it from a fellow blogger.  I love how so many people can be connected from so many different places and backgrounds )  I will put a button to the original blog so that anyone else can participate and read about others:)  I am starting a little late so I will have to go back and do the first couple days at some point.  Hope everyone enjoys this:)

Day 1, Wednesday: The story of your life in 250 words or less (or one paragraph... no one will be counting your words... probably)
Day 2, Thursday: Educate us on something you know alot about or are good at. Take any approach you'd like (serious and educational or funny and sarcastic)
Day 3, Friday: Things that make you uncomfortable
Day 4, Saturday: Favorite quote (from a person, from a book, etc) and why you love it
Day 5, Sunday: Publicly profess your love and devotion for one of your blogger friends. What makes them great? Why do you love them? If you don't have blogger friends, talk about a real-life friend or even a family member
Day 6, Monday: If you couldn't answer with your job, how would you answer the question, 'what do you do'?
Day 7, Tuesday: The thing(s) you're most afraid of
Day 8, Wednesday: A piece of advice you have for others. Anything at all.
Day 9, Thursday: A moment in your day (this can be just a photo or both a photo and words)
Day 10, Friday: Most embarrassing moment (s). Spill. 
Day 11, Saturday: Sell yourself in 10 words or less
Day 12, Sunday: What do you miss? (a person, a thing, a place, a time of your life...)
Day 13, Monday: Issue a public apology. This can be as funny or as serious or as creative as you want it to be.
Day 14, Tuesday: Ten things that make you really happy
Day 15, Wednesday: A Day in the life (include photos from throughout your typical day - this could be "a photo an hour" if you'd like)
Day 16, Thursday: Something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working to overcome it
Day 17, Friday: A favorite photo of yourself and why
Day 18, Saturday: Tell a story from your childhood. Dig deep and try to be descriptive about what you remember and how you felt.
Day 19, Sunday: Five of your favorite blogs and what you love about them
Day 20, Monday: Get real. Share something you're struggling with right now.
Day 21, Tuesday: A list of links to your favorite posts in your archives
Day 22, Wednesday: Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. (a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off)
Day 23, Thursday: Things you've learned that school won't teach you
Day 24, Friday: Your top 3 worst traits
Day 25, Saturday: Something someone told you about yourself that you'll never forget (good or bad)
Day 26, Sunday: Something you read online. Leave a link and discuss, if you'd like.
Day 27, Monday: A letter to your readers
Day 28, Tuesday: Only pictures
Day 29, Wednesday: Five songs or pieces of music that speak to you or bring back memories. Use Grooveshark or YouTube to include them in the post
Day 30, Thursday: React to this term: Letting Go
Day 31, Friday: A vivid memory

A truly great day!!

It was a great day today!!!  To start it off I woke up to a beautiful view of mount hood out my window and it was stunningly sunny and in the 70's:)  But what made it so great was spending time with a truly dear dear friend.  We went for a long walk this afternoon and got some starbucks on the way back. I know can't get better than that right:)  This friend is someone who is truly dear to my heart.  We haven't gotten to see a lot of each other since I moved back with my schedule and hers but today was awesome.  We got to just walk and talk.  It was awesome to chat and catch up and just enjoy each others company!! I love days like that!!!

 

avoiding the blog

I know, I know I haven't been on here much.  The truth is I have been avoiding it.  It is time I woman up and be honest.  I had a couple prity bad experiences with people  being judgemental and just plain mean actually on here.  But then I decided you know what I started this blog to share my feelings and life and even more than that to be able to look back and see how I grow.  So I need to stop avoiding this and quit worrying.  I tend to worry too much about what others think and I don't want that to hold me back in life.
   It has been a big learning and growing experience being here in Oregon in the past 6 months.  I really didn't even want to move here.  Of course part of me wanted to.  Part of me wanted to be closer to my close friends and family but at the same time I know that in reality some of those friendships and relationships aren't good or healthy.  In life you always want to be able to count on family and friends and you want it to be loving and kind and in reality sometimes it just isn't this way.  You can't change others that is for sure.  I had said before we came here that I really didn't want to because in my heart I knew what I wanted and expected wasn't reality.  So it has been a rough go.  I am trying to learn though.  It isn't only about others and there choices for sure, but about me and how I have been.  I have acted like a person I really don't care to be.  Getting caught up in talking about others and their life and what I think is right-wrong and what they should and shouldn't do.  That is SO WRONG!!!  It is really easy to look from the outside in and judge but it isn't right or ok.  We don't know truly how a person can deal with things.  We don't know everything they have gone through.  Now I am not saying you should excuse bad or immoral behavior or let dangerous people into your life.  I believe sometimes you have to stay away from some people and bad situations.
   I have just found being back here to be hard and filled me with anxiety.  I hear people talking behind my back, or hear of people talking behind my back.  I don't like it and it HURTS DEEPLY!!!! but even more than that I don't like it and it hurts so I don't want to do the same to others.  I may not agree with their choices or their way of doing things but if they aren't hurting me or putting me in danger what good will I do them if I am judging them and talking bad about them.  It does nothing for no one!  I don't want to be that person!
  I will try and write more and share more good and the struggles:) I don't want to feel like I can't share and I want to be able to look back and know I was always me and that maybe it will help others who struggle tol.

March Birthday Bash!!

So in March is my birthday, my cousins birthday and my best friends birthday so we decided to have a march birthday bash at our local country bar.  It was a blast.  We got all dressed up and just had  a ton of fun.  I am not really a drinker.  Well lets put it this way in the past 10 years I have drank 3 times.  So ya not much of a drinker:) But I did drink that night.  It was a ton of fun:)  We danced, we sang, we just had a great time goofing off and celebrating together.  Was nice to have friends and family to celebrate with.  Here are a few pics from that night:)

The march Birthday Girls

 Birthday girls, sister in-law and mom

Me and my bestie of 24 years:)

Ya this is after a few shots:) 

Have a blessed Easter!!!

Hope that everyone has a blessed easter.  It is nice to be able to go and celebrate with friends and family.  To see the kids do their easter egg hunts and just enjoy time together and what the LORD has done for us.  I am also blessed to get to celebrate my birthday on such a blessed holiday.  Hope everyone enjoys there day and may we all remember what Christ did for us and what the holiday is truly all about!!!

Oregon is keeping me busy

I need to take more pics and write more stories:)  It has been busy, busy with all my friends and some family to hangout with.  Been hiking a ton up in the woods which has been nice.  I am getting ready for a spring bear hunt trip end of may so I want to be in shape for that.  The woods are beautiful and having some of my greatest friends in the world to hang with is AWESOME. We just love getting away and enjoying nature and chatting.  We have also had some adventures that were both great and frightening with a Bear encounter.  But luckily it chose to retreat.

Also have been enjoying girls time with cousins and friends.  Getting nails done and shopping some.  It is nice to have others to do that with and have some be able to tell you if something looks good when you try it on:) The girly side of me coming out:)

Eric is loving his new job and his boss has really taken a liking to him and giving him a lot of responsibility to be in charge when he not there and to run the other shops when the guys go out of town.  So it is great to see him get appreciated for his hard work and effort.  He finally feels like he has a future somewhere with a company that values a good employee.  So we are very thankful for that.

I am still battling my arm issues.  They have not gotten better and actually have gotten worse.  I have to use slings on the hikes and such so that they don't get to painful.  They are not sure there is anything else they can do.  This may be permanent:(  I REALLY REALLY hope not as it really does take a lot from my life.  But we shall see what time brings.  It won't ruin my life...I won't let it!!

I hope all my fellow bloggers are well.  I need to catch up on my reading soon:)