If this was a job I would be fired!!!

I know, I know I am never around and most of what I post lately isn't that interesting!! But to be honest with calving it has been work, work, work. So sorry for my lack of posting.

I am getting excited as in 3 weeks I leave on a road trip with my aunt from Minnesota to go back to Oregon for a week. I can't wait to see everyone!! I miss my friends and nephew and such soooooooooo very much. I also miss the beach lots and lots!!! It will go quickly and will be full of go, go, go to see everyone but it will be fun I am sure.

I think and wish I could live closer a lot, but then I stop and think I am torn. I do love the ranch life and I do like not having to deal with all the family BS, but I am missing out on seeing my nephew grow up, camping trips with all the family and friends, etc, etc. I just really want to quit feeling torn. I want to be satisfied with where I am!!! It has helped having a really good new friend here though. My neighbor Denise is awesome and I just love her 4 kids. I spend a lot of time with them and me and Denise even walk every evening together, as longs as there is no lightning. we tend not to like being walking lightning rods!!! So it has helped to ease my feelings a little. But I still can't help but want to be close to those I love and know me best!!

I am really just working on my attitude now. It has needed a major adjustment. Just in general about life, love, work and most of all about myself. I am soooo hard on myself and not self forgiving at all. I was really honestly starting to not like myself at all and I didn't want to go there. I just have to high of expectations and was being lazy about changing those things that need changing. But I am really working on this:) Lots of prayers to the LORD:)

Well not much else to say. Hope all is well in all my other blogger friends lives and my heart and prayers go out to some of you that I know are going through really rough times now.